Im Back!

Been so long, I haven't update any news.

Im been living happily and doing well.

Single again~

Just broke up~
Sometimes i really don’t understand.
How should i treat a person that i really love?

Is it that hard to get a perfect relationship?
I got no idea what is happening......
It comes in a sudden~

What i felt is I’m such a loser;
there is nothing good about my life i think......

Seatin here doing nothing

Today was boring…..
Woke up at 6am, prepare for the exhibition in Shangri-La Hotel. O my~ not much people here. That organiser told me day before that there will be 500+ people are participating this conference and exhibition. Now I’m here, there is only about 100+ peoples. The whole bloody morning got only 2 peoples register for my tour. Alamak, wasting my time seating here for nothing. Somemore Im alone u know; want to go for toilet also can not want to go for lunch also can not. Luckily I brought my laptop with me; at least there is something to pass my time. The best thing is there is no Internet connectivity here. I keen to get on line, got to pay RM100 for two days internet connection. Haiz~ Boring!!!
Take over a booth alone is really bored u know? Actually there is a part timer suppose to come and assist me, but last time what happen to him is, his stomach upset some more sleep very late, that’s why not coming today. Shit!!! What kind of stupid excuse.

On Being Thankful~

Dear God,

I was going to thank you tonight

For a beautiful sunrise,

That was pink behind the fog down the hill,

And for a wonderful rainbow,

That i run under pointing to all my favorite colours,

And for such a great sunset,

That sparkled otange special gifts,

Exept that none of them happened.

But do you know what?

I still love u, God.

And i have a lots of other things

That i can thank you for tonight,

Even if you didn't give those

Very special gifts to me today.

It's okey, God.

Because i'll look for them all again,

When my tomorrow comes.

Visitors from UK~

Ms Sabrina and Mr Keith~

So glad to meet u guys in Malaysia. Been half a year we never meet each other, and I miss u guys so much.

Day 1~ 10^th of July.

At first u guys decided to take a taxi from the airport to hotel. Due to the flight delay and the taxi fare is extremely high I force u guys to let me pick u guy up… hehehe..

That is what we called friends….

After checked in to Crwne Plaza Mutiara. I think is around 11pm already. We walk out from the hotel and looking for food. What an unfortunate even, the entire pub and the restaurant’s kitchen are closed!!! Poor Keith, he was in a hunger. So I decided to go Jalan Alor to have our late dinner. Guess what? We meet Daniel Lee (the winner of Malaysian Idol 2006). Hehe… Sabrina said that he is a bit too shot.

Wow~ Keith really give me a shock, he can really eat a whole cow when he is hungry. We ordered more than 10 dishes of food. He managed to finish all u know… wow.

This is the look that having the last piece of BBQ chicken wings.

Day 2~ 11^th of July. I was working like hell in my office, unable to meet up them.

Day 3~ 12^th of July.

After work, immediately I date Swin for dinner with Sabrina and Keit. Unfortunately she was bz that day. So 2^nd choice~ JOANNE~ she is the q 1 in our office.

At 1^st Sabrina wanna to have dinner in Jogoya, but is fully booked. So we went for Nipon Tea. The food there was very nice, and we really had a great time. Duing the dinner we share a lot of story that we came across, some of the story are really interesting although we repeated thousand times… heheh.. after our wonderful dinner, we hang around in Suria KLCC for a while. After that, Keith wanna go Petaling street. But i’m too tied for that, so I just show them how to get there. After leave them at the KLCC LRT station, me and Joanne went back.

Day4~ 13^th of July

I got a scary morning u know… Joanne and me reached Hotel Crowne Plaza Mutiara at 11.30am. I had forgotten the room number of Keith so we decided to ask from the reception. Now! The problem occurred, I don’t know the full name of Keith, all the while I been calling him Keith only. I really don’t know what his full name is. Moreover we couldn’t ring them at all. We were so worried about them, because last night they went to Petaling Street. As we know Petaling Street is not a safe place, we consideration of a lot of circumstances; like will they rob by some1? Will they came across pick pocket at the Petaling Street? …….. We were so worried. At that Moment nothing we can do, and it was 1 something in the afternoon. So we walk across to Pavilion to have our Lunch. After our Lunch Joanne when to Zara to do some shopping. At that time my phone rang. It was Sabrina calling. Once I answer the phone, I scolded them upside down. Scolding in the sense of worrying them but not angry ok~

After that I invited them to my house for dinner, before that Sabrina want to dye her hair, so I drive her to a saloon in Kajang. Joanne when for French pedicures and Sabrina do her new hair style. What we guys can do during this time? Keith and I went for shopping. Mans shopping actually pretty fast u know. We had done within 1 hour. I bough nothing, but Keith got a Swimming Trunk and some cloths.

When we went back to the saloon, we found out that Sabrina dye her hair in green. O my~ while we saw her in the saloon, her hair still rapping with a cloth, we thought her hair will be as green as the X’mas tree. After she had done, only notice that is not as terrible as we thought. Quite nice u know~

After that, we sent Joanne back to her house and we went to my house. I was pulling their legs said that I got a huge god as my pet. No 1 can tie it up so they better be careful when enter my house. Hahahah they really get shock then they saw my dog. While they enter the main door they really look left and right and worrying the god will come out and chase them off. Out of a sudden my god came out under the car they really frizzed for a while, than they started to laugh out loud. That moment was so funny u know…

After dinner I sent them back to the hotel. It was a grateful day I would say. LOL!!

Day5~ 14^th of July

We couldn’t meet up with due to my work load.

Day6~ 15^th of July

Sabrina calls up and informs me that she is on their way to the airport. Too bad I was working; otherwise I will send them to the airport.

Good bye Sabrina and Keith. Miss u guys~ hope u guys doing well in UK.

Just a little bit care will do!

Know what.. I was very frustration these days. Some time I was wondering am I going crazy or what?

How can I get rid of this feeling in me? I’m not supposed to be sad u know… doctor ask me to be more positive minded and try to be happy all the time.

But how? Things never been ok u know.. There is something really wrong in me. I felt like living alone. Am I too particular in my friendship? Or I really lack of care? Or I’m too depends on people surrounding me? I thought human beings are those Clusters type of specie. Seems like not….

Really disappointed. Know how I take him as my buddy… but who cares? In Malaysia, there are very limited friends that I want to talk with, especially to guy. Cos I can’t just simply tell to a girls that what problem that I’m facing, or can’t tell what am I worried about. It is really hard to tell and trusted them on telling such personal issue. I was keeping lots of matter that bothering me and now I’m trying to release to someone who willing to seat down and listen to me. Haiz~ I never expected such feedback from him. It is really hurt, seriously hurt.

What he told me halfway when I’m telling him my issue? He doesn’t care at all, and he told me that I’m fishing for sympathy, but I’m not!!! I just want to tell him what kind of difficulty that I’m facing. Guessed I got a wrong pick for throwing out problems. Really miss u guys in UK. But the time different won’t allow me to chat with you guys. I really got a hard time surviving in Malaysia. Been bloody 8 months living in Malaysia, everything seems wrong. I’m feeling lonely, helpless…….

Friends for selling…. I wish I can get a better friendship you know. Really need a friend that can really listen what I’m trying to tell. I’m really tied to work alone, eat alone, watching movie alone… I’m so sick of it. Howard where are you? Annie where are you? Sabrina where are you? I miss you guys~ I miss our UK life.

Once again, I’m not fishing for sympathy. I don’t need any advice from anyone, or any parse from anyone, cos I know myself better. I just need a little bit of care will do. Just a bit attention will make me stronger. No matter how storing a worrier is, he needs support as well. Just needed supports to keep myself walk a bit further.

The differenciate between UK and Malaysia

10th of Sept I had ended my uni’s life. Been through 1 year in University of Wolverhampton I have learn a lot. Not just in studies, but in how u deal with different man kind. Many people says that uni’s life is the happiest period that they had, but this phrase doesn’t apply on me. For me being study in University is depressing, and it is a big jump for me. With my average result of diploma, have to jump straight in to 3ed year horns degree; it is very hard for me. However, I manage to complete it. Have to give myself a clap~~~ heheh…. Now I’m back to Malaysia, I have to start searching for job as well. Many people ask me why I don wanna work in UK once I finished my study, and they said that I’m very stupid that din stay back in UK for work. I found that a lots of people thought that it is very easy to get a permanent job in UK, and can earn a big money there. They are not quite true though. Cos It is not very easy to get working visa as well as permanent job in UK, moreover, the tax in UK is very high. After taxing, the salary I get won be able to allowed me to survive in UK for sure, and don event think of saving. Although in Malaysia I won get such high paid as UK. But the tax is low, and the cost of living is much more cheaper compare to UK. That’s why I chose to come back to Malaysia for goods. There is another reason that makes me wanna come back to Malaysia so badly, is because my entire dearest friend is in Malaysia, I can’t really leave them. They are such an angle for me, no matter what problem I'm facing, they are always beside me. Now! I needed job so badly, they are so busy searching job for me, ask for the contact and event make appointment for me. Sob sob … touching!! SEE~ no place like home. Got my entire dearest friend living with me, I never been afraid no more…… thank you my fallows friend!!!! Love you guys truly