Know what.. I was very frustration these days. Some time I was wondering am I going crazy or what?
How can I get rid of this feeling in me? I’m not supposed to be sad u know… doctor ask me to be more positive minded and try to be happy all the time.
But how? Things never been ok u know.. There is something really wrong in me. I felt like living alone. Am I too particular in my friendship? Or I really lack of care? Or I’m too depends on people surrounding me? I thought human beings are those Clusters type of specie. Seems like not….
Really disappointed. Know how I take him as my buddy… but who cares? In Malaysia, there are very limited friends that I want to talk with, especially to guy. Cos I can’t just simply tell to a girls that what problem that I’m facing, or can’t tell what am I worried about. It is really hard to tell and trusted them on telling such personal issue. I was keeping lots of matter that bothering me and now I’m trying to release to someone who willing to seat down and listen to me. Haiz~ I never expected such feedback from him. It is really hurt, seriously hurt.
What he told me halfway when I’m telling him my issue? He doesn’t care at all, and he told me that I’m fishing for sympathy, but I’m not!!! I just want to tell him what kind of difficulty that I’m facing. Guessed I got a wrong pick for throwing out problems. Really miss u guys in UK. But the time different won’t allow me to chat with you guys. I really got a hard time surviving in Malaysia. Been bloody 8 months living in Malaysia, everything seems wrong. I’m feeling lonely, helpless…….
Friends for selling…. I wish I can get a better friendship you know. Really need a friend that can really listen what I’m trying to tell. I’m really tied to work alone, eat alone, watching movie alone… I’m so sick of it. Howard where are you? Annie where are you? Sabrina where are you? I miss you guys~ I miss our UK life.
Once again, I’m not fishing for sympathy. I don’t need any advice from anyone, or any parse from anyone, cos I know myself better. I just need a little bit of care will do. Just a bit attention will make me stronger. No matter how storing a worrier is, he needs support as well. Just needed supports to keep myself walk a bit further.
How can I get rid of this feeling in me? I’m not supposed to be sad u know… doctor ask me to be more positive minded and try to be happy all the time.
But how? Things never been ok u know.. There is something really wrong in me. I felt like living alone. Am I too particular in my friendship? Or I really lack of care? Or I’m too depends on people surrounding me? I thought human beings are those Clusters type of specie. Seems like not….
Really disappointed. Know how I take him as my buddy… but who cares? In Malaysia, there are very limited friends that I want to talk with, especially to guy. Cos I can’t just simply tell to a girls that what problem that I’m facing, or can’t tell what am I worried about. It is really hard to tell and trusted them on telling such personal issue. I was keeping lots of matter that bothering me and now I’m trying to release to someone who willing to seat down and listen to me. Haiz~ I never expected such feedback from him. It is really hurt, seriously hurt.
What he told me halfway when I’m telling him my issue? He doesn’t care at all, and he told me that I’m fishing for sympathy, but I’m not!!! I just want to tell him what kind of difficulty that I’m facing. Guessed I got a wrong pick for throwing out problems. Really miss u guys in UK. But the time different won’t allow me to chat with you guys. I really got a hard time surviving in Malaysia. Been bloody 8 months living in Malaysia, everything seems wrong. I’m feeling lonely, helpless…….
Friends for selling…. I wish I can get a better friendship you know. Really need a friend that can really listen what I’m trying to tell. I’m really tied to work alone, eat alone, watching movie alone… I’m so sick of it. Howard where are you? Annie where are you? Sabrina where are you? I miss you guys~ I miss our UK life.
Once again, I’m not fishing for sympathy. I don’t need any advice from anyone, or any parse from anyone, cos I know myself better. I just need a little bit of care will do. Just a bit attention will make me stronger. No matter how storing a worrier is, he needs support as well. Just needed supports to keep myself walk a bit further.
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